May 2013
8 posts
4 tags
“I didn’t want to wake up. I was having a much better time asleep. And that’s really sad. It was almost like a reverse nightmare, like when you wake up from a nightmare you’re so relieved. I woke up into a nightmare.” - Ned Vizzini, It’s kind of a funny story
Sometimes I feel that life is so tiring / upsetting and that i’ve made so many wrong decisions that a part of me secretly hopes for bad things to happen to me. Sometimes I’m so tired that I really wish to end it all and say “Take me, Lord” so that I can go to heaven, and hopefully, start afresh. Hahahah.
But thats just me being selfish and silly. God has placed so many...
SO TIRED RIGHT NOW.
today wasn’t how i expected it’d be like (not at all, really) except for the part where i did manage to get a haircut & the part which i met huiqi and went for rly yummy korean bbq (Y) officially one of the worst days since the start of hols for me and im just happy that its finally over.
times like these make me thank mummy so much for getting me an ipad so...
April 2013
10 posts
Last night, I finally realized how scared I actually was and how I had been trying to convince myself that I was ok for the past week or so :’( sigh and I know its not merely psychological when I say that its becoming more prominent.
Just hoping that everything will be ok, painless, and quick haha. Feel really bad that everyone’s getting so worried for me and I really hope &...
I tried so hard to help you, shield you, protect you, teach you, be there for you, and all you do in return is to scold me / throw me vulgarities / say that I have changed and am no longer as nice, that you never ever expect anything from me anymore, that you FORGOT your promise(s) to me (how convenient) and that I should never trust you ever again.
(and this is where the very cliche line comes...
Wow time really flies!! We’ve come to the end of the “Medicine” part of CSFP and we’re left with “Surgery” for the next 2 weeks. Haha. CSFP has been tiring (mentally and physically), but rly fun and most importantly, meaningful. I rly thank God for posting our CG to KhooTeckPuat frankly! Its rly well balanced haha. Over there, we’re able to work hard,...
March 2013
7 posts
New Love
We had our Clinical Skills Foundation Course this week and it was rly rly fun, learning how to do sutures, catheterization, give injections & IV drips, resuscitate hypoxemic patients and all. Just in time really, when all the studying for M2s pros just drained you of all your energy, confidence and your passion you had for med :)
And as the thought of us starting to hit the hospitals from...
2 tags
3 tags
When a first year complains about having too much...
whatshouldwecallmedschool:
omg this is rly mean though its so funnny!!!!! hahaha hangover <3 can’t wait for part 3 hehe
ONE DAY MORE!!!! \o/
I guess all of us are filled with the same kind of mixed feelings currently - uncertainty / anxiety, and excitement, that all this torture is going to end soon!! But for now, things are still pretty intense :( All the best to everyone and to me!!!! Let go, let God.
“Faith is being sure of what we hope for, and certain of what we do not see.” ~ Hebrews 11:1
February 2013
14 posts
Today, I had a mini argument with Shawn and after that I went back to sleeep. But the first thing that came to mind when I woke up was still him hahah and I rly wished I could give him a big hug, somehow. So cheeeesyyyyyy but ahwell~ if that ain’t luv then i don’t know what luv is :)
anw, the start of study break!! Time to start hardcoringgggg :D engine broke down today though haha...
ugh had an awkward moment today and it sucks cos i was to tired to defend myself. but i rly do trust my long term memory haha ahwell~~ even if i rmbed wrongly i shall live in self-denial and believe in my version of the story :)
anw valentines was 2 days ago! didn’t manage to receive my bouquet from Shawn again this year haha. somehow we’re just not fated with flowers haha. last year...
January 2013
9 posts
feeling so frustrated currently. because of the same person again. i hate your stubbornness ugh. but you’ll never see this cos you don’t even bother reading my tumblr anymore.
need a break from everything for now. bye fb
I really don’t feel prepared for CA2, though I really tried. :’( i’ve been mugging non-stop since school started, but my brain is just unable to retain stuff. Just trying to cramp more stuff in for the next 3 hours and after that i’ll just go to sleeeep. Ugh so frustrating.. Never felt so unprepared for any of my exams till I entered medschool haha. The past few exams went...
2 tags
Aminoimidazolecarboxamidoribonucleotide transformylase.
One good thing that med school has done: Increase the number (and length too in this case) of words I know. (Y) But for now, foaming like macrophages sigh :’(
2 tags
“And we’ll hate what we’ve lost...
Its nearing CA2 and i’m FREAKING SCARED (sighhhhhh, should’ve studied during hols.. But then again WHO STUDIES DURING HOLS?!?! ok fine some people did), but thank God for Shawnieboy who makes everything feel much betterrrrr :’)
Studying’s tough but being my boyfriend’s tougher HAHA. Thank YOU for accompanying me (though its supp to be your hols now :( ) while...
December 2012
18 posts
K so its pretty obvious from the posts that i reblogged today that i’m upset. And i really am. Tonight, i really am THIS close to giving up. But whenever I think about all the time and effort i’ve given to this, and the people that i’ve let go because of this, I know that I can’t and there’s no turning back anymore. Sigh. I know I make rly rly bad decisions at times...
“When your heart breaks you’ve gotta fight like hell to make sure you’re still...”
– One Tree Hill (via starrynightsxoxo) 